we'll, i'm still alive
most people would say thats a good thing

michael is gone, i should have known that would happen
i'm done with men, i dont need the pain anymore

i got to see steve a few days ago, he looks bad since he got sick
i feel bad for him, he hates the girl he's with now
i want so badly to bring him home and take care of him, but i know that would not end well

i'm weak, no matter what he does to me i'll always love him
i have to get tested again in febuary
and we know the oral test dont work on me so for 10 years now every 6 months i have to get stuck
i'm glad the first test was a false positive
and there's not much chance i'm sick because it's been over a year since i was with him
whats odd is his girlfriend is testing negative too

right now i'm in a lot of pain
i have a wisdom tooth coming in wrong, my jaw has locked up and the whole side of my face is swollen
supposed to go in a few hours and have it cut out

not looking forward to having something jerked out of my head.
and i think i'm gonna have to miss kerioke  tomorrow, and the new years party thursday
i was looking forward to that, but who's gonna wanna give a new years kiss to someone who's face is swollen like mine is right now
not that i was ever that great looking to begin with
my birthday coming in a few months, brings back bad memory's
i think i'll skip it this year